island boy

 

I met a boy who lives on an island

with Athena and Atlas (shrugs).

 

[Mighty Athena,

Mighty Atlas].

 

(he is my sanctity,

my dream,

and I’ve loved him before…)

 

In Another Life!

 

 

this is my

Sanctity,

my Calm,

my Joy,

never to be left behind

(or so I’ll always hope)

 

I felt it.

Tonight’s the Night.

 

 

 

 

 

downward spiral

 

I’m in that downward spiral.

[trapped inside]

 

step by step I’m falling

[no, I’m not fine]

 

I’m caught, I’m caught

I’m tangled in the noose

[it’s hung about my neck

it’s weaved throughout my body parts]

 

Tired of pleading, tired of asking for help.

[I’m finally falling]

 

 

That Downward Spiral.

 

 

 

 

 

 

back to truth

Beautiful poetry
beautiful life
beautiful smile
beautiful tears

(ugly beauty?)

these are mine
this is my sadness
my heavy sword to bear

I am opening myself to this green world
breathing out my unhappiness, taking in its…

…alienation.

I am full of hate, I must admit
confusion, confused with insanity
and forced into confinement, nothingness, blackness

I am full of…
but I want to be…
I don’t wish to be…

sadness.
happy.
a burden.